Just a side note: I have now seen more spiders randomly pop up in my life than ever before. Mr. Spider is seeking revenge.
“Its not that I don’t follow the rules… It’s just that I don’t pay attention to them.” Dawn Donson
Maybe this is what life is about? I mean---- we are called to go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them and teaching them to obey everything He commanded us, and that is our purpose. But… gosh, maybe the in-between moments are what life is all about? Maybe it’s about watching Dawn walk Lucie with her arm extended and laughing as Lucie tries to run ahead. She looked really carefree that day, with the sun in her face and wind in her hair. But that’s Dawn for you :). Or maybe it’s scheming with Josh as we set up timers all over the kitchen and wait for chaos to ensue… And humming the same songs every day, but it’s fun to do while we wash dishes. Maybe it's about watching Gary race around the store, always on his toes with a coke bottle in his hand. Then to periodically watch him stop as he peers out the drive-thru window, waiting for his wife to come back simply cause he “misses her.”
I guess I am a sucker for the small moments. Walking outside and feeling so small, looking all around at how vast the sky is and considering how close the sky is. Maybe it’s hearing the John Mayer song at JUST the right time, when you feel peaceful but not depressed. It’s about driving with Shane’ with her feet on the dash and voice in tune with Colbie Cailat, feeling content as the sun warms us. Or Sam sending the perfect scripture to sooth my heart. It's about watching as time and time again God’s plan always comes through, and puts all my fretful worries to shame.
Yeah… I think these are the moments God doesn’t want us to miss.. All those small things that somehow add up to the big picture.
We are living our lives right now, ya know? We only get to do this once!!! The decisions we made last week, today, or will make tomorrow will affect how we feel when we look back in twenty years and reflect on how we’ve gotten wherever it is that we’ll be. Life does not “start” when we get married, or when we have kids... This is it right now! How I treat my family, my mom, my college career—all of that is my life! I am living right now! And… we do not get do-overs, or restarts, like my Nintendo gaming system in 1998. This is it, this is all we’ve got, live it right :)
Friday, April 23, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
touché, spider, touché
I killed a spider Friday night with a blowdryer.
Now some of you are thinking, OH MY GOSH, animal cruelty! Others of you, like me, understand the seriousness of spiders. I realize that I am a million times their size, I realize I could smash it with a single punch... But maybe what YOU don't realize is that their razor sharp pinchers could sting me any second and poison me, leading to my slow and painful death. Yeah. Bet you didn't realize that.
Anyway, I had to kill it. I was just getting into bed, all nice and cozy-like, at the end of a long day. The lights were out and I was just pulling the covers up to my chin when I looked to my left and saw the monster, hanging there, all nonchalant like.
After a brief freak out session I was finally able to return to my bed. I took a closer look at the positioning of the spider. It was on the outside of the screen on my window (phew), but inside the glass beyond the screen. Great. I couldn't whack the screen until it fell (though I tried for several minutes), and opening and closing the window didn't budge the spider either. I was out of options.
If only there was a way I could like, blow the spider off the screen, then open the window all quick like and have it drop to the ground...
OF COURSE! A blowdryer!
So, five minutes later, I sat on my bed and said a few words to the spider, something along the lines of "Yeah, this is MY town, Mr. Spider." "Bet you won't try this again, Mr. Spider." And turned the blowdryer on full blast.
I really just intended it to fall and then I'd open the window, no biggie. I ended up frying the spider :( And worse yet is that it didn't even fall off the screen. I now sleep next to a curled up, fried spider permanently attached to the screen next to my bed.
Lessions learned: Jessica 1, Mr. Spider 0.
I realize that I should probably spend my first few blogs letting people get to know me, or impressing readers.. Or saying profound, insightful things.. But yeah, that's not always my style :)
Now some of you are thinking, OH MY GOSH, animal cruelty! Others of you, like me, understand the seriousness of spiders. I realize that I am a million times their size, I realize I could smash it with a single punch... But maybe what YOU don't realize is that their razor sharp pinchers could sting me any second and poison me, leading to my slow and painful death. Yeah. Bet you didn't realize that.
Anyway, I had to kill it. I was just getting into bed, all nice and cozy-like, at the end of a long day. The lights were out and I was just pulling the covers up to my chin when I looked to my left and saw the monster, hanging there, all nonchalant like.
After a brief freak out session I was finally able to return to my bed. I took a closer look at the positioning of the spider. It was on the outside of the screen on my window (phew), but inside the glass beyond the screen. Great. I couldn't whack the screen until it fell (though I tried for several minutes), and opening and closing the window didn't budge the spider either. I was out of options.
If only there was a way I could like, blow the spider off the screen, then open the window all quick like and have it drop to the ground...
OF COURSE! A blowdryer!
So, five minutes later, I sat on my bed and said a few words to the spider, something along the lines of "Yeah, this is MY town, Mr. Spider." "Bet you won't try this again, Mr. Spider." And turned the blowdryer on full blast.
I really just intended it to fall and then I'd open the window, no biggie. I ended up frying the spider :( And worse yet is that it didn't even fall off the screen. I now sleep next to a curled up, fried spider permanently attached to the screen next to my bed.
Lessions learned: Jessica 1, Mr. Spider 0.
I realize that I should probably spend my first few blogs letting people get to know me, or impressing readers.. Or saying profound, insightful things.. But yeah, that's not always my style :)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
oh gosh
Ohh goshhhhh. Oh goodness gracious!
Technology is hard! This blog thing took me forever to figure out, and I'm still working out some kinks! Earlier I was just kinda looking around at different noted blogs, or whatever they're called, and saw a grandmother who could upload pictures, put them on her site, add links, change font size and font color, etc. I was floored! But it got me riled up enough to make my own blog...
This is more or less just a tester blog I think.
I'll be writing a lot for myself :) Writing, for me, is a great way to relax/reflect on life and remind myself to breathe when the going gets tough!
If anyone reads this, thats great :) And if anything, I at least get to spill myself out and STRETCH my mind-- shake off the stiffness, shake off the cobwebs :)
Technology is hard! This blog thing took me forever to figure out, and I'm still working out some kinks! Earlier I was just kinda looking around at different noted blogs, or whatever they're called, and saw a grandmother who could upload pictures, put them on her site, add links, change font size and font color, etc. I was floored! But it got me riled up enough to make my own blog...
This is more or less just a tester blog I think.
I'll be writing a lot for myself :) Writing, for me, is a great way to relax/reflect on life and remind myself to breathe when the going gets tough!
If anyone reads this, thats great :) And if anything, I at least get to spill myself out and STRETCH my mind-- shake off the stiffness, shake off the cobwebs :)
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